February 2010
I’d like to think when we’re older, it just won’t matter
I wake up in your shirt and the bed smells like you. You’re not here though, I’ve checked. I slip over onto your side of the bed, you left the heat of your body behind and it feels nice.
The blinds are not doing their job, streaks of light shine through the cracks and onto my face. I count the dust motes that are dancing with each other. I...
January 2010
During an Aerials practice...
Shannon: I'm sorry Alicia, you must feel so fat in our group. You're nothing but!
Emma: She's nothing but fat?
Megan: Way to go Shannon..
You Push, I'll Pull
Somehow I always wake up screaming to your voice soft and quiet: Shh, it’s okay. And for some reason, I believe you even when I know you’re lying. Took control; won me over with this insensible behaviour. You’re so immature and it’s charming. So unexpected and it’s refreshing. Make me want to be more than what he made me. Making me smile even when I hate your laugh. I feel stupid and I like it....
“Sometimes, your nearness takes my breath away. And all the things I want to say...”
Oh, Acedemia
You can be my alphabet and I will be your calculator And together we’ll work out on the escalator I will time you as you run up the down And you’ll measure my footsteps as I blow through this town The mean of our heights is divided by the nights Which is times’d by the daggers and the route of all our fights, The pass of your poem is to swathe me in your knowing And the beauty of the word is that...
Until the End of Drowning
He falls & he doesn’t know why. The only word to describe it is drowning. & I’m being pulled under by a force I can’t master. The surface that’s just above my fingertips.. It never used to be like this. The tides came, yes. & Yes, they sometimes took us with them…but never like this. We are in the middle of the ocean; no land in sight. We are continually...
“Love is passion, obsession, someone you can’t live without. If you...”
– Meet Joe Black
“Sometimes I feel there’s a hole inside of me; An emptiness that at times...”
– Practical Magic
In Short.
Shattered dreams
And broken voices
Siren screams
We’re left with choices:
To run or to hide
To live or to die
The puddles are filling with blood.
I take your hand
And you take mine
We’ll run across
The telephone line
To sing or cry
To break or try
We’re left beating in this shell.
Left to break free of this hell.
You take my lifeline
I take yours
You play the keys
I’ll...
So Sorry, Say Goodbye.
I’m caught in the middle Your attention is my drug Your voice is my solace And although I’m not being fair I won’t stop Not for you, not for me Because I’m liking this way too much It’ll get bigger Better More complex But the evil inside me keeps screaming More, More, More Not that you’re making it hard So simple to keep you wrapped up I didn’t even have to ask You handed over the key As if you...
Cosmic Love-Florence & The Machine
...
Twisted Destination
It’s ringing; in my ears, in my body. My thoughts are echoing with that ring. Then your voice cuts through, surrounded by other voices; too many other voices. They make me feel foolish; I don’t know what to say anymore. You’re waiting for my reply, but I don’t know what I feel anymore. I’m confused and I tell you so, but you’re persistent. Usually that would comfort me, your persistence that is,...
“You’re not perfect, and let me save you the suspense…This girl you...”
– -Good Will Hunting
The Broken Tune
Does it even make sense? This thing inside of me eats away at my reason until I can’t tell if my logic is truly logic or simply just the leftovers from a feast I didn’t attend. But it eats at me, still; biting off the corners little by little, bit by bit. You can’t know what it does to me, can you? I’d rather believe you acted in ignorance than on impulse. You move away, you come to me. Your...
“& Somewhere in all the talking, the meaning faded out. Oh, I wonder, when...”
– Joy Williams
Maybe You Forgot...
I used to love how you saw things How you saw me Laying on your stomach In the grass Looking up through your fingers At my face and the sky You made me laugh Because you kept that piece of grass In a box With my heart Said it meant something Said it talked about the day in a way we couldn’t I don’t want to hear what it has to say Not now anyways But I still think your eyes talked for miles Even...
“This is what I thought I wanted, so why am I afraid?”
– Tyrone Wells
Dream I Can't Shake
J: Can I tell you a secret?
A: Yes
J: Nevermind I don't want to tell you
A: You have to tell me now
J: But it's a secret
A: I won't tell
J: Do you promise?
A: Yes
J: How do I know?
A: Because I care more than you know
J: You do?
A: I do.
The Last Time
It’s not much, but it’s just enough to keep me scared of closing my eyes; of closing my mind to the moments that are like fingernails. The points dragging across the already painful memories you so thoughtfully left behind. Spend your whole life believing the person in front of you is the one you love.
I don’t know that face.
I wish it was like breathing: breathe out the hurt, breathe in the...
“Did you think that you could be so far gone that I couldn’t find you? Did...”
– Graham Colton
Apologies- Grace Potter & the Nocturnals
♪My...
“& Oh, I’d wait forever if it meant being lonely together”
And..End Scene
I wake up, you’re on my mind And I tell you through the phone You laugh at me but sweetly say “Darling, you’re not alone”
And those monsters in the closet Don’t seem scary with your voice Though they come creeping through the doorway You don’t let hiding be a choice
Sometimes you’ll face it for me While I cower in my bed Chase away the scary things Creeping in my room and in my head
I wonder...
“There’s one thing I want to say, so I’ll be brave: You know what I...”
– Stars
Come Around
There has to be more than just to be left with an endless wondering of thoughts inside a mind that never delivers. When you love so much and you can’t let go… There has to be more than these vacant promises, an eternity in them that can’t end.
Come around to me…
Replacing love with open air proves lonelier than professed. How I wish that you’d be nearer than before...
“Live through this, and you won’t look back.♪♫”
– Stars
The Princess in Your Castle
Building castles in the sand With the sunsets at our back I keep looking at that picture Because we grew up oh so fast
We remembered much too slowly All the things we used to love Wanted you as my one and only But reality took a shove
Prince Charming’s around the corner But I’ve forgotten where to go Big bad wolf’s coming for my castles Daddy, come and take me home
When you can only...
“I come home, & I find myself alone again. & I need your voice on the...”
– Catherine Feeny
Open Heart Surgery
Somehow I have to find the meaning in all this nonesense. The belief that this happened for a reason isn’t enough for me anymore: I want to know why. Your fingertips are like ghosts around the places we used to whisper about through stagnant wires. They’re in my brain like a monotonic drone that resides long after the vibrations of the past have ceased. How can we explain this mess?
...
“You like this girl that doesn’t like you back. You can’t stand being...”
– Alex
To Many Memories
& I can still feel your lips in my hair by my temple, in my brain The memories drive me crazy, make me insane You used to play with my fingers when it rained & I was scared… Crawling into bed beside you because you chased away the fear
I watched you from my doorway, you were putting on your clothes You kissed me very softly & it was ours. Nobody knows. Got you breakfast before...